Wow. It has been a while since I have posted here. It isn’t because it hasn’t been on my mind though. I have actually been wresting with writing a post, but it isn’t for the reasons you might imagine. I feel I need to be honest with you guys, and at this point I have left almost everyone here totally in the dark. Let me think . . . How do I go about this . . . Okay, I am just going to tell the story.
On April 17, 2012, I begin noticing I was having trouble speaking. It was as if I couldn’t get the words out all the time. On April 21, 2012 I began noticing a constant dizziness and a slight headache. It was below a 1/10, but it was there. The headache has went away for the most part, but the dizziness is present daily. On April 23, 2012 I began noticing trouble typing and handwriting. It isn’t present all the time, but when it hits I am unable to type fast (read: VERY SLOW), and I can’t handwrite at all. This typically lasts for less than a minute, but it happens frequently. Sometime after that I began to notice that I was having more trouble shaving. It was like I had just removed a weight from my arm – I just couldn’t control it well. The dizziness gradually began increasing to a 3/10, and now it stays there most of the time. While the speaking and typing have gotten better, the writing is a little worse. In the last week or two I have begun to notice severe fatigue. I am exhausted by the end of the day, and in fact, I take a nap after work many days.
My GP ordered an MRI, which came back clean. I have been to a neurologist, who ordered a CTA and advanced bloodwork, which didn’t seem to point to any problems to him (note: I disagree with his thoughts on this, as it showed a positive ANA, high cortisol, a past infection of West Nile Virus, and a past infection of Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever). The CTA came back clean He has since referred me to a Neurotologist at Vanderbilt Hospital in Nashville, Tennessee. This takes place on the 13th.
On top of these issues, I have also developed a problem with my ankle. At first I thought I had Achilles Tendonitis, but now I am not sure. It appears to have at least been partially gout, but since it hasn’t cleared up for a month, I am afraid something else is going on. Tomorrow I expect I will have an MRI performed on my foot.
I named this post Hotel California at the advice of a very good friend. My last post was Peaceful, Easy Feeling, and right now I am quite the opposite of that. Those who are fans of the Eagles will know that Hotel California is anything but a Peaceful, Easy Feeling. That is somewhat how I feel right now.
There is actually some good news in all of this, which I will not get to tonight. I suspect this will be a two or maybe even three part post, and in one of those coming posts I will tell more. The point of this tonight it to remind everyone that life is short and we aren’t promised tomorrow. Even if we get there, we aren’t promised it will be easy.
If you are a believer who prays, I would appreciate the prayers. If you have thoughts or suggestions, those are welcome too, although as I already indicated, I have some other thoughts coming on exactly what is going on soon.